I am getting up later and later everyday. I am getting used to this pace and start to suffer the sunlight through the window a little bit less.
From morning to evening, everyday is just a full high gears pace. If I step out from the trailer I should be ready to go from 0 to 100 without any kind of warm up. Kids, cabin, dishes, being available takes so much energy and it does not matter which part of the day it is. So how can I cope with it? Why am I more tired in Milan where I do less?
Probably the gratification is different. And it is true that the less you do, the more you are tired. It is a physiological thing that happens in our body. The more we do, the more our body gets used to do things. That is why I firmly believe that staying at home is not working for me. I should probably move out but it would also mean that I would have to take on many costs on my own. The commodity of staying at home and saving lots of money is too great to get rid of. So I will need to be more disciplined when I go back.
Anyway, the cabin is almost done. It really gave me a fulfilling and rewarding feeling. Building something can make you feel so accomplished, both for material things and character development.
By the way, today I felt asleep twice during the activities. First, after the HIIT (high intensity interval training) we had a session of yoga. During the breathing part I fell asleep. At one point I woke up and saw everyone sitting and listening to Alyssa. She later told me that she did not want to wake me up because it was funny to see me there sleeping while everyone was doing yoga. That same morning I fell asleep again while Fran was explaining the Passage Meditation, which is a kind of meditation that comes from a University teacher who is actually the first one who to give meditation classes as part of a university program.
Jim saw me and we talked about it during the break at the forest hiking. As I told him, I do not have gears in between. I either go full speed or full sleep. That is one of the reasons why I just fall asleep on cars, bus or trains. Whenever I sit down and I have no instructions or things to do, my body goes full hibernation mode. For example, if I have to walk, I walk fast; if I have to work, I work fast. But if I am on a vehicle waiting to reach the destination, I just fall asleep in less than a minute. I wonder if my mind can keep up with the pace as I am not that disciplined. For example, the fact that I fall asleep during yoga or that I wonder with my thoughts during meditation means that I am not in control of my own thoughts. Meditating could be a good answer to start getting a hold on my mind flow.
Tonight I will probably go to bed really early because I feel like I need a day off, but we are in the middle of the vegan week. Therefore, I will not get any. And I think that when we will be done, it will be even more stressful and tiring with my family because my parents tend to freak out and complain a lot when we travel while I am more of a “complaining does not change anything, let us all think about how to make this better” kind of traveler (and person). By the way, I am so Italian that I wrote really long sentences instead of keeping it simple. But as I said, full speed or full sleep!
Godyl Go! 